Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Putting Faith in action

This year I decided to be Fearless in everything I do.  I have told my teenagers that if our God is for us and we are in His will there is nothing in this world that can stop us and if there is one thing I want my teens to know is I won't ask them to do anything I am unwilling to do myself.  So, this year became my fearless year.  It's not to hard when trying new foods, going to new events, taking new trips, but now it's time to put my faith in action and fearlessly folllow Gods will in my newest adventure.
For those of you who don't know it is time for me to leave Athens.  I have known that this year would be my last in DAWG country for awhile now, but now it's real.  There's a lot to be scared about with this move.  It's my first move of my own choice by myself.  For the first time I have friends and relationships that will be harder to keep up with.  I have a youth department full of teenagers I cherish more than life itself, but as scary as leaving the life I have built for myself is, being out of Gods will is way more terrifying.  I can assure you this decision was not made lightly, and I spent a lot of time praying I was reading the situation incorrectly, but alas this was not the case. 
Starting over is a very scary thing indeed.  I will have to find a new church, new friends, learn a new job, nothing that sounds like much fun.  I have so much to lose, but who knows what God has in store for me to gain.  Part of growing up is making really heartbreaking decisions and this is my first one.  Though I will miss my job and manager, we all knew my time was dwindling, but walking away from my teens...I cannot begin to describe the pain that came with that decision.  Through the last several years these teenagers have taught me more than I could ever hope to teach them in return.  They have reminded me that the generations to come have so much to offer and are so resiliant.  My teens inspire me everyday to be a better person.  Saying goodbye to them is going to be way more difficult for me than for them, but at some point I knew I was going to have to do what's best for my future.  However, if they think they are getting rid of me that easily they are CRAY CRAY, I am only moving 2 hours away and intend on making several trips to check on them. 
Athens has become my home over the last seven years and I will miss it greatly, but it is time to Fearlessly follow my new path God has put in front of me.  Nobody ever said being fearless would be easy, but I have been told it will be worth it.  I am ready for my next adventure whatever it may bring, but these next few weeks are going to test my resolution.  Here we go...the turning of a page, and the beginning of a new chapter.

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